a list that will keep growing because you learn something new everyday

& what i've learned in the past 2 decades . . .
- never pass judgement too quickly
- to see beauty in even the ugliest of situations
- never settle; but make the most of whats in front of you
- holding on to things can push them away further
- even with the best intentions you can't change people
- theres 2 sides to every thing, story, situation, etc.
- hate to say it but todo a su tiempo
- what you may think you want, ain't really what you need
- money comes and goes, seasons change, & people fade
- be careful what you wish for; it might just happen
- whats done is done. deal with it, walk away, & take the lesson with you.
- every loss has a gain & vice-versa
- always follow your instincts
- do what you feel & say what you think
- don't point too many fingers; especially if you don't know where that person came from & what it took to get them there.
- everything goes full circle, lo que va viene, & karma is beautiful.
- live life day by day
- love as much as you breathe
- it's ok to not be invincible
- absorb the world & don't filter out the bad; it'll come in handy one day

the core

it hurts
it aches
it yearns
it breaks
it tosses
it turns
it cries
it burns
slow death
short breath
loose wires
tight knots
multiple shots
solitary intoxication
deadly sensation

you'll never know


gia

tainted

reality slaps me in the face
i'm tainted
it feels inevitable
usually calm and collected
but lately all the poison
is being reflected
not sure if i chose it or it chose me
i refuse to be vulnerable
or show a sign of vulnerability
an obvious sign of insecurity
seeping through the cracks
my heart filled with impurity
i don't even cry


gia

valentines day ain't so bad after all

its valentines day
and simply i hate valentines day
i am entitled to
love is a nasty ass
it makes me sick lmao [just kidding]
ok not really
i just been through hell and it's outskirts with love
i went and bought the movie 'why did i get married'
been wanting to see it for a while
my friends where all with their boyfriends
so my single ass stayed in to watch the movie
its one of the best movies i've ever seen
it may be a movie; fact or fiction
the message got in my head
cheesy or not it gave me hope
so the moral of the story is . . .
i think if you try to look at things from a different angle,
you might just see that through the patchy weeds
there might be some beautiful flowers ready to bloom
in it's due season ofcourse
i hope it makes sense to you
cause it sure as hell did to me

-gia

people make me sick

i too make myself sick
anywho
you either care way too much
or could care less
peoples opinions never change
their input is sure as hell not welcome
some people just don't learn
others are just tainted
nobody is perfect
some are fine with settling
others are merely satisfied with perfection
people gonna do what they wanna do
regardless if it's beneficiary or not
what i'm trying to say is trust is essential
and unfortunately it's gonna be betrayed
whether is friends, family, or an acquaintance

-gia

rare

i woke up on the wrong side of the bed
i got up in a bad mood
and just looked ahead
what was coming wouldn't be good
for no apparent reason
i didn't hear what was said
in my face
everything i dread
my vision blocked
a walking zombie
useless
an indefinite organism
breathing waste

gia

mr.sandman bring me

some weed just kidding :]


theres so much i don't know
i'm so eager to learn
many things i obtain
my heart still yearns
i have a void
a vacant space
of a whole lot of nothing
my insomnia grows daily
and so do my worries
concerns of things that haven't occured
and probably won't ever
a cure
a solution
an answer
is non existant
even processing a thought
becomes an eternal mission
my conscious seems to have a.d.d.
thats the burnt neurons
no wait thats genetic
sleeping is becoming recreational
and this monotony pathetic
there goes my a.d.d.



giaaaaaaaa

hey asshole :]

blasty blast
reminiscing about the past
looking at old notebooks
rhymes & letters
back in the day
when we thought we were gangster rappers
i mean we are
crazy ass freestyles
recorded & burned lol
man those were the days
sneaking out at night
long gone innocence
tears from the past
smiles for the future
intoxicated thoughts are the present
sometimes i think we're more than this
like the we've got the world to conquer
and a million universes to explore
guilty pleasures hidden treasures
like bieng ordinary is not an option
individuality is key
to happiness & all that it'll ever be



giaaaaa

little tree

shes calling my name
im tempted to respond
i wouldn't know what to say
her aroma fills the air
her flowers bloomed
in vibrant greens
i can taste her
i form her a bed
and tuck her in
light her up
and let her in
a sensational feeling
feels like i'm dreaming
but i'm not
shes my getaway
without going away
my escape from reality
my infallible friend
with her my world has totality


giaaaaaaaaa

my chihuaha says

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pulled the keyboard up to her
and thats what she wrote
basically shes saying she needs a manicure